AN OPEN LETTER TO SOMEONE WHO DREAMT, WHO DREAMS, AND WHO IS STILL DREAMING

Dear Future Reader,

 

I may not know you personally, but I assume you are here because you are slightly interested in reading my letter, right? or if i’m wrong, prove it.

Leave.

But, it does not end here yet. Not just yet.

Before anything else, I want you to read my rules.
1) Just read it without judging me
2) Follow rule #1

This letter is a-not-so-touching-letter to the point that this may retch you out. I’m a boring writer—my thoughts are vague, my mind is an empty trash can, and I could not be anymore so negative towards myself. I don’t have consistency— see??? I’m just a total mess. So, I’m sorry.

But, here I am again, you see? sitting on this chair, writing uhmm just another silly letter for you.

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“Go after your dreams and keep them alive.”

Dreams are like tragedies and comedies. It is a full-drama series that you cannot ever imagine watching— you may enjoy every episode of it or you may get tediously boring about it. Somehow, you might have bumped into you dreams, like your actual dreams—you were dazzled by its charm; you want to build it on your own; you have tried enough to reach it,  yet in the end, you still failed to have it. And now, you once looked yourself up in the full-length mirror, literally facing it, pinching your face, deeply sighing a little bit, talking to yourself, asking the question, “Is being enough not enough?” — and there you are, crying. It let you feel the pain, the wrath, the disappointments —all at once.

But, what if the whole scenario started this way?

Somehow, you might have bumped into you dreams, like your actual dreams—you were dazzled by its charm; you want to build it on your own; you have tried enough to reach it, you still failed to have it, yet in the end, you never give up and stood up twice. And now, you looked yourself up in the full-length mirror, literally facing it, pinching your face, deeply sighing a little bit, talking to yourself, asking the question, “Is not being enough, enough?” — and there you are, laughing. It let you feel the joy of endless pain or suffering, the “hurray”of finally proving yourself as a strong person amidst the wrath, and the “I-got-the-fighting-spirit” vibe even in the middle of your disappointments.

I tell you a story.

I’m gonna share this now.

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Just Random Thoughts

Good evening!

This is just another normal night for me, and honestly, I have nothing much to say, but I want to share you what I’m feeling and thinking right at this moment.

Tomorrow, I’ll be having my Law exam, and I think I’m still unprepared for it, but I’m quite feeling positive always. Had you ever encountered that day when you just wanted to binge watching, stalk your crush online or do nothing at all inside your class? I almost fed myself up with all temptations around me– be it with movies & foods & other stuff that really attracts me. This is a negative reminder, and it scares me about how I became so complacent about things that matter the most— but in fact, I wasn’t really like this from the very start. I always tell myself to put much and more effort in everything that I do, and to not settle for less. I know I deserve some rest, but I still keep asking myself, “When is the best time to relax?”. It excites me, yes– to finally enjoy the lesson-free days and think of anything other than reviewing before classes and go to the library to study.  I can’t help myself but to at least spend this day without even feeling any pressure from school. I want all this to end as soon as possible and enjoy the coming days! I want to experience the real vacation I always wished and wanted to come!

But still, I practically have to motivate myself more because I’m being a low-key student now, and I’m not pleased about it. At the very end of the day, I still have student responsibilities to take, and I must do my best! This is gonna be worth it in the end!!!

The Strawberry Who Stays Positive,

Camille

My FIRST Blog ! :)

Hi there guys. So this is my first blog that I made. First of all, I’m not used to make some blogs. Frequently, the thing that interests me most is making some news and feature articles for our school publication. But there’s one thing that I really love to do−Writing.

I was really inspired by the Paulinian Teachers. They really exerted their time soothing students to write in our school publication. Initially, I’m a bit confused in writing such articles. I was thinking like this:
1.) What will be my title for this? Naah. I’ll just make it later
2.) Where should I start? –I don’t know
3.) Okay, I already have an idea-Tadaaaa. I made my first paragraph. SUCCESS!
4.) Uhh Ohh. Is my Grammar correct? -I hope so.
5.) Oh, how about the spelling? Is it right?- Nah, I’ll just check it on my dictionary
6.) Gosh. What is the correct adjective/verb for this? – Is it suitable?
7.) Okay. DONE!
8.) Oh. I forgot. Yay! Here we go again- Back to Number 1

I’d started writing articles when I was on my 7th Grade. Expectantly, year by year, my writing skills improved. I’m a little bit introverted that time because the one who will check my works is older than me. I know. I know. They’re really used to write such articles and they really good at it. Unlike me, I am only just a beginner. What if something happens like this?
1.) What kind of sentence is this?-Too embarrassing.
2.) She’s so numb. She can’t even write a simple article-So Poor in vocabulary
3.) WHAAAAATAAAA! This article makes my head twinge.-She’s going foolish.
4.) REJECT this.
5.) Okay.

Well, my imagination is so overstated. But I’m just being true to reality. I’m opposing my own confidence on this kind of stuff. But Behind those nuisances, I’m still having fun WRITING.